Life on the Interstsate
A year and a half ago I was in a church I loved, served God with all my heart , worshipped him with all my soul through every aspect of my life. I read everyday,was in a pretty much constant state of prayer, I had a running conversation going with God. Some in the church considered me leadership. I was always a little uncomfortable with that,I was just serving if people wanted to follow that was fine. I guess you could say I was in the fast lane. When things started to change at my old church I slowed down to the slow lane . I still read and all the other stuff, but I was holding back in my service. When we left I pretty much got off the highway altogether. Stopping to gas up I guess , at least that’s what I would tell myself. I did none of the things I’m supposed to do. If that sounds like I walked away from God I didn’t , still loved him but I was tired and maybe more hurt than I wanted to believe I was . My communication with him suffered.
Sunday was a convicting day for me at church. The service was about giving God your best. I wasn’t. I was just ” Doing” church. I was in service during worship and Dave Powers comes up to us and says he wants to pray with us. OK so I asked God quickly what he wanted me to pray for. I heard nothing not God telling me “nothing” I just didn’t hear God. My mind went blank. It’s not that I don’t have anything to pray for , my wife, my children, numerous ministries, my family, friends, world peace etc. . I was silent , I could sense Dave’s frustration when he prayed for our communication to be better with God. I was pierced. That’s what I love about Dave he has a way of doing that to me. I don’t think he means to, God just uses him to. I heard nothing because I haven’t been talking to God like I used to. Why would he talk to me when I haven’t been talking to , or listening to him. That is changing as of now.
So here I go down the on ramp. Turn signal blinking. Getting ready to mash the accelerator pedal. Building speed for the merge in…
Note to Dave: Thanks for the kick in the pants. I asked God what I should pray for and this is what’s on my heart. Father thank you for the lessons that you teach me. Thank you for your grace even though I don’t deserve it. Forgive me for turning from you to soothe my pride. Thank you for putting people like Dave in my life they are a blessing and keep me focused on you. I pray for Worship and the Word .Make it grow , use it as a catalyst for revival. Bring the seed money for Heavenfest. Use it to bring people to you. In Jesus name. Amen Bryan